A little funny and some food for thought ....

So I saw this chart this morning on pinterest and all I could think was "YES, YES, YES - I do that." Well more so I over analyze and think hard compared to what? I have dealt with worse so this isn't that bad .. to ME. It may be really bad to someone else though ... maybe this isn't normal I feel like it is a 3 but maybe pain is an 8 ... I don't know to me ACTUALLY dying would be a 10 ... I am not actually dying, so everything else has to be less. Well I am not even close to dying so maybe it isn't even a 5. To heck with it I will say 5 its a good middle of the road number."

I do not think I am alone on that so I had to post that chart to give someone else a laugh.

My other "food for thought" ... How much do our pets really know about us? I know people always say that animals "know" or are "in tune" when something isn't right. I have always believed that, but my dog has got me concerned. She is normally happy go lucky and rambunctious and honestly is similar to a young child with uncontrolled ADHD. As I have been starting all of these new meds to treat an episode of Chronic Rejection I am having with my wonderful and devoted transplanted lungs she has started acting more and more strange. I came home from the hospital Tuesday after having a bronchoscopy done to check me out and she was all about ME. I will be honest I love my dog, but I am not her favorite parent, my boyfriend is. She loves him, he lets her lick him all over (well NOT ALL over, that would be creepy) but you know what I mean. He plays with her constantly and is always ready to go for walks, play fetch or rough house with her. Me ... I am more of a be a good dog and come snuggle with me, okay I will throw the ball for you a few times but I want to snuggle!

Well Tuesday my boyfriend picked me up and took me home from my mothers and Indie (my furry munchkin) didn't want to have anything to do with him, she was all about me. Play with me mom - okay I will snuggle next to you, I want to sleep up against you, I want to just sit and stare at you and so on. I thought it was sweet and maybe because I was slightly medicated that she was acting strange. Wednesday she was the same, wanting to play with ME and focused on ME. She laid by my side while doing meds, I threw the ball and she brought it back to me every time even if the throw barely went 2 feet. Last night she walked around with me and every time I sat down she was on me. She would lay on my feet if I went to the bathroom, I laid down for bed she laid on my stomach, not by my stomach literally on top of my stomach. She readjusted at several points in the night as I would roll to get more comfy and each time she was as close to me as she could get.

I just think it is amazing as she really is seeming to take my issues right now very personal. I got Indie 2 years ago, 2.5 years into my post transplant journey. I have been on IV meds once since getting her, but have never had any real detrimental issue since my transplant, let alone since getting her. This is the first time that she has been around me while I am even slightly impaired, meaning heavier breathing, tired, just wanting to rest. She hasn't experienced this stress yet and honestly it has me concerned. So for those that have had animals ... specifically dogs (as I have had cats all my life and none of them have ever reacted like this to my health changes) is there anything you do to perk your pets up if you are under the weather and they seem to be taking it personal?

I know it may seem silly, but I don't want her to make herself sick because of me.

Have a good morning and a great Friday!

Gotta Start Somewhere

So I used to keep a blog, about 4-5 years ago. I enjoyed it at the time, but then my family found out about it and ruined it for me. I blogged less and less and ended up just deleting the entire thing because I was tired of my family asking me really personal and detailed questions about why I had written what I did, rather than just taking it for what it was, a blog. A blog - something I had written under some type of stress, strange notion/concern, or just something I had found amusing. I stopped the blog and I have wrestled with that decision for years. I thought about starting up again last year, and then came up with a blog name after months of deliberation and never wrote a single word. Well now I am ready again. I need an outlet and this is going to be that place for me.

I hope that you enjoy what you find here and that you are able to take something away from what you read. If not though, I won't be upset because in all actuality not everyone will like my opinion (even though I think it is great) and honestly if everyone liked my opinion I am sure there would be that one person that I would think "Seriously - even they agree with me? I quit!" So yeah basically I guess I am trying to say - I hope you like it but if you don't  - Do NOT complain about it, just stop reading it. Yes it is THAT easy.

Otherwise I am done for the time being and I hope that someone somewhere will read at least one word of this otherwise I will have put a lot more work into a diary than needed ... I could have gone old school and just gotten a journal.

Have a great night and sleep well friends~